i am angry.

i hate fox, and i especially hate 24.

i miss Prison Break already. *sobs*

*sighs* what am I going to do on monday nights at 9 now?? WHAT???

DAMN YOU ALL!!!

~kisses

i'm returning to normal.

ok. so. making money. ummm....

yeah... i don't really have a life. so alls i've been doing lately is working.

and obsessing. one of my fave pasttimes. obsessing about hot guys...mmmm. even better.

Wentworth Miller... Michael Scofield.

*drools and melts into an orgasmic puddle of ecstasy*

wow...

ok, i'm going to stop now... cuz his hottness is just too powerful. seriously. that gaze. those hands. leaves a girl breathless. and helpless. and... well... he's very orgasmic.

ok, stopping now.

but yeah... guess who my new obsession is?

~kisses

that was very pathetic. i'm sorry if you read that. i apologize for my angsty-ness.

i want to do something. and nothing.

i want to go out. i want to stay in.

i don't know who i can call to talk to, to hang out with, i don't know anyone's schedule.

would it be bad just to want to curl up and bed and stay there forever? or to go out and never come home?

i feel like going for a drive. i don't know where i'd go. and i probably shouldn't be alone. i want to be alone.

i want to weep, to sob, to have a fit.

i want to be quiet, and still, and cry silently.

i don't want to cry at all.

i'll be ok.

i'm filled with a great sadness, a great loss.

but i'll be ok.

also...

today's (and probably this week's) word is:

Splendorful!

That is all.

so... i was thinking...

i haven't posted in a while. i guess i haven't had anything really interesting to say.

not really interesting.

visited sheena on wed night/thursday. spent the night at trinity. it was fun. Me, Aggie, and Sheena watched High Society, Foolproof, and part of Sabrina (we fell asleep through it.) There was also kareoke thrown in there around the middle. so it was really fun.

but i digress.

i'm sorry. to some people. in different degrees of sorryness. i'm sorry i haven't been very social with some of you. i've been quite the anti-social kind of person since i've been back, i think. with some people at least.

its just... clubbing doesn't really appeal to me at the moment. i'd rather not waste who knows how much money on drinking and dancing. the whole dancing and stuff sounds like fun, don't get me wrong, just...

i'm working a lot, and i have to save up for insurance for next year, and i'm really tired. just hanging out sounds good. but you catch me to late, and i won't be up for it.

actually, i think i'll be a hermit for awhile. i won't want to go out any time soon, i think.

i'm sad... no... i'm missing people....

k, done now...